Dear stranger.

I have resigned in my job, it was a sudden decision I had to make. I was not prepared and job hunting is quite difficult since it took me months to land on one. And so I went back to school cause I'm afraid of being jobless for months. It was exciting at first, I passed at a good university and got the program I wanted. Professors seemed all great and my classmates appears to be interesting coming from different race and lifestyles. But after a few weeks, I started becoming anxious. I want to be productive but I can't. We have loads of requirements, I didn't do any. I can't motivate myself to do them. I know what's happening is wrong and I'm aware of my emotions, but I can't control what I feel. I tried reaching out to my friends, but they're quite busy so I didn't bother telling. I wanted to get hold of medicine but I'm not sure how. I can't just come up to a pharmacy asking for a drug not prescribed. And I don't want to go to a therapist when that's the degree I'm pursuing. I feel like dropping out of my classes, cause I think I'm not yet ready for the responsibilities and that I need to fix myself first; but I can't since my parents are helping me out with tuition. It's just that, I'm continuing but I'm not growing.