Is she will be loved?

I was in a bus on our way back in Manila when Maroon 5's song played in my music player. I sang while the music played and suddenly got slowed down when I absorb the chorus line... Is she will be loved? Will I be loved? I asked myself. I didn't know the answer, yet I felt hopeless.

I remember our lecture before on Erikson's psychosocial theory of development. I'm already on the conflict of "Intimacy vs Isolation". It was really hard for me to develop strong feelings for a person and I admit, all of those few, failed to bloom into a romantic relationship. And now, here's the outcome. Loneliness.The feeling I'm trying to remove by venting it out in this blog.  

I'm the kind of person whom people wouldn't see a paint of emotion on the face. I've been always the "poker face" type cause before, I hate it when people can read what I'm feeling. As much as possible, I try to stay strong and okay even though something's killing me inside. That I've been seeking for something that I couldn't have or would I? 

I don't get envious and I know it's bad to feel it too. But there's one exception where I can't help it, that's every time I see a couple who looks so good and happy together. It always make me wish I have someone who would complement me and him likewise.