Nayanig yarn?

It's already 6 days post-op of my PRK. I have no more pain in the eye; I just feel discomfort from time to time due to dry eyes. Thank goodness for eye drops!

So... I'm blogging to tell the world that I have been uneasy for the past few days. Fortunately, I let my uncomfortable mind rest and ignore his dm while I put focus on the excruciating pain my eyes two days before Christmas. The holiday became my excuse to reply and politely give greetings. 

I hate to say that I think still like him BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO. Why do I feel like this? Part of me wants to improve myself inside and out and show off to make him regret his decision while the other part is curious and wants to reconnect. It's been 9 months and why do I make him matter still? 

"We suffer more in imagination than in reality" - Seneca

I guess this is exactly what's going on in me. With his one-worded dm, I became fixated on the thought of him. I know, this too shall pass.


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