My Mind's A Mess

There's a lot of things I'm feeling worried about this time.
  • I can't have a proper sleep. Being unemployed made me have at least 12 hours of sleep a day. And right now the drug I'm taking isn't also helpful in making me sleep early. 
  • My face doesn't look good due to pimples and marks. I really hope the ritual I'm doing on my face works soon. I need my confidence back before I take the exam.
  • Exam. I'm gonna take a licensure exam for Psychometrician this coming July 21-22. And. I'm. Not. Ready. I seem to have a short-attention span when it comes to studying. I don't have enough will power and patience to read. I lack drive. But I want to passed. I have to because my parents have been supporting my review fees and extra money for my "independent" life. This sucks if I fail. And its not in my plan to see them disappointed. Ugh. I need help on Statistics. Err.
  • I'm battling the urge to play again. I really can't deal with this right now and I hate that I'm influenced to play again. It may be easy for some but it's a tough battle for me. I really take pleasure in playing it but regrets every minute I waste when I turn off. It's very unproductive and it was part of my life for 7 years.
To sum this up, I LACK DISCIPLINE! I need someone to help me put things in order. Someone who can push me to do things better and harder. Someone who can inspire me. Someone. 

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