There ya go.

I'm slacking off. I feel drowned of problems. I honestly want to leave it but I don't want to leave them. Get it? I don't want to disappoint them or leave them hanging but having a heavy load at my back weakens me.

I want to get this over with. But I know that these responsibilities will be the way to my success. I know I shouldn't run from it. I know I won't progress if I don't deal with my job properly. No one's pressuring me actually, only I do.

I need a break. I need my long wanted retreat.

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