Chronic feeling

I can't believe I'm feeling the way I had on my last blog post. I thought I'm over it but it's chronic. It comes back whenever I'm blue. Well, it is the reason why I'm blue. I'm not depress depress but I just feel sad and unsure of the things I'm doing. I cried because of this feeling. Because it's not right. I'm not suppose to feel this way. I should be happy and interested but I can't help it. I'm just not. I'm not saying I don't like my course, I love it. But can't find the motivation. Last night, I remember my former teacher said that the thought that our parents work hard for us should keep us going. But why is this not enough for me? I hate that I can't answer my questions. I should know the answers because there's no one that knows me better but me and I'm a psych major -_-! At this very moment, I want a retreat.

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